its been a while.

its been quite somw time since I posted anything.

I've been down. I've had some ups. I've been any and everywhere in between.

since I last posted... my momma has passed away. what a hard and terrible thing to go through. it wasn't from the procedure I posted about before, but from everything else it seems.
she faught long and hard. her little body just couldn't do it anymore.
she was/still is a lovely woman who devoted her whole life to helping and making things better for others. she was a joy. she was everything.
she went in her sleep, just the way I think she wanted to. no bells, no whistles, no one watching. just peacefully.
she was the one I could go to for any and everything. she knew So much and if she didn't, she hunted around until she found it.
she was a momma to everyone from the instant she met you and hardly ever did you not find a smile on her face.
she had the cutest little laugh and such a twinkle in her eye. she was soooo incredibly special. not just to me and my sisters and my daddy, but to everyone she met.

its hard to think that her shell is gone. its hard to wake up knwoing she isn't just a phone call or a car drive away.
I know she's here, looking down on all of us.
she's whole again and not in pain and with the Lord and her momma and daddy and all of her family. she's where she's suppose to be. its just hard.

I've got her close to my heart, always.

I love you momma.